Throwback Thursday: Carpe

Let's go back in time to when I had no idea what I was doing... oh wait, that hasn't changed at all... Ok, let's just go back in time.

We recorded the film negative and edit it into the final piece ...

We recorded the film negative and edit it into the final piece ...

Ah yes, I feel this is going to lead to an eventual vulnerability hangover, so get ready.

I don't know many artists... or people for that matter who gleefully prance back into their past efforts. Maybe I don't hang out with the wrong people.

In my mind, I did it, it happened, another step on the path, no use in looking back buuuuuut there is a lot of use in looking back.

Plus, it might be fun.  It doesn't feel fun as I write this because, oh man, did I have a lot to learn (and still do), but maybe we can all continue to learn together.

Anyway, whining and lollygagging aside, I decided to start digging up my old work for a few reasons:
1. Most of my old stuff is kind of weird, and thanks to Mr. David Lynch and some new Twin Peaks and a regained sense of confidence, I am so ready to get my weird on and revisit where I've been.
2. A few of my other films will be finishing up their festival run soon and I'm excited to share them on the internet. I thought this would be a fun way to ramp up to getting those out in front of a greater audience.
3. I've got an exciting and challenging project coming up where I'm going to need to bring my experimental filmmaking side back to life, so I have to make amends and reaquaint myself with ... myself.

So, we begin at the beginning, or as far back as I have copies of.
There's a few Super 8mm gems lost somewhere that were wonderfully strange and some horrible failures... exposure was a hard lesson learned. Oh, how my dear friends tolerated my many experiments... I should write them a long thank you card.

That brings us to my final project for the Intermediate Filmmaking Class at MSUM. We shot on 16mm negative - the image above is from the negative that we re-purposed, projected and recorded to add back into the film when we got the film and the digital transfer back from the developers.

I was really, really into a band called Russian Circles so I used one of their songs as inspiration.
I was also really really into high contrast lighting, no dialogue (mostly because it's hard and scary - still think that) and experimenting with the medium in general.

There's some stuff I really cringe at watching it now like my male-gazeyness, not super developed female characters, and a bunch of technical stuff I just really know yet.

Like many films, the idea just popped into my head and haunted me, compelling me to make it and it's success in that class solidified my resolve that there is a place for weird films and weirdos like my in this world. Trust me when I say that I would have made a more "normal" film if I could have...but I just couldn't, and I'm actually pretty happy about that.

So (cringe) here you go, for your entertainment, Carpe:

So, there it is. In all it's delicious black and white film glory.
Looking back I'm now seeing the influences I didn't know I had and immensely grateful that the world is full of people and artists willing to continue to take a step into the unknown and try something unusual.

I'm going to try to post a new, old film every week until I'm out of goodies to share.
So get ready! (eeeeeK)


Sorry for the extended lapse in posting. I've been, well, busy DOING stuff and not DOING stuff. Here's more.

Hello Friends!

It's been a while, too long actually. I've had a lot going on and also a lot not going on.
I plan on elaborating on all of this in further posts, so stay tuned if any of it stirs some intrigue deep within you.

Since Thanksgiving I have made a short film for a local filmmaking competition called Z-Fest.
I gathered a really bomb crew and it was a total treat to make this hilarious short film with them.
Here's the trailer is you want a sample:

We actually got nominated for a handful of awards, which is really just the icing on the cake.
If you want to go see it on the big screen, you should buy your tickets for the Z-Fest Best of Fest screenings and award ceremony on Friday March 24 at 7pm. 
I'm really excited to share more about this project and the process in future posts as well as share information on where you can screen it at a film festival near you (fingers crossed.)

I started pre-production on a music video for Sophia's Tragedy.
I'm really excited about this collaboration and it will be my first ever official music video.
The band leader and I both really love the concept that I dreamed up and we've got the perfect cast. We've been running into a few snags, including my own writer's block.

WRITER'S BLOCK?! What?! aaaand now you know the real reason I haven't been posting.
It seems so overdramatic. I don't even consider myself a writer, but I come up with stories and sometimes I have to write them down. If I'm blocked, this becomes a really big problem.

Never fear, I've been working through it - as this post can be a testament.
I bought the book The Artist's Way a while back out of curiosity because a friend had done the process a while back. I barely touched the book until a few weeks ago, I thought it might be a little too "woo woo" for me. Out of desperation, I decided to give it a go.

It's great. It's really really great. It's only been a few active weeks and I'm already having a lot of big realizations about myself and my process. So, that's cool.

I also decided to start a Cookbook Club out of a need for greater sense of community and, of course, a love of making and eating food.  For those of you who are unfamiliar with the concept, it's like a book club except we pick a cookbook every month and everyone prepares a recipe (or two) from the book. Then we all get together and have a big ol' yummy meal and talk about our experiences. We are always looking for new members, so if you want in on that action stay tuned. I will be posting more on this soon.

I've been slowly but surely re-reading Natalie Goldberg's Writing Down the Bones
This adorable little book was assigned for a creative writing class in college and it's complementing The Artist's Way very nicely. It's a great book if you are ever interested in writing more. 

Nick and I have also been adventuring with the adventure dog, Arlo, as much as we can - and can tolerate the weather. Spring is around the corner, so prepare yourselves for a lot more nature photos.

On top of all of that junk, I've had some pretty rad opportunities at work. Some self made, some that have fallen on my lap. So it's been fun to stretch out of my comfort zone and do some neat stuff at the stuffy ol' corporate job.

I'm probably forgetting some stuff. Got a lot of hopes for the future, including hoping to carve out some time to write more here.

Thanks for reading!