on doing

There are about a billion inspirational mottos for this lately, but it doesn't make it any easier to do the doing.

Hi, my name is Amber Johnson and I am a chronic over-thinker.
I'm a generally anxious person and I don't really want to do anything without weighing all the risks and possible outcomes.

This means, my inclination is to not do anything. It's just not safe.
The problem with this is that I started to realize how unlived my life was.

I've dabbled in being a Nike commercial cliche before, "Just do it" and all that jazz but my life happens and my over-thinking ways take over again.

Over the last few years, life seems to be smacking me upside the head again and again while screaming, "STOP MESSING AROUND AROUND AND DO SOMETHING!"
Frustrated about your career? DO SOMETHING.

So, I've started doing. Trust me I still think, but I do more. 
I've realized that I have a wealth of experience both in my career and in life and it's time to step up and own it. 

What does that mean? 
Instead of fretting about the fact that I've, say, never directed a feature film before or never edited a documentary before or never produced a children's TV show before, I just start doing the work and using the processes I know and have been using for years on creative and professional work. Considering that my collaborators and clients keep coming back, I must be doing something right.

I'm sick of not doing things just because I'm not exactly sure how to do it. 
Like painting: I have no idea what I'm doing with watercolors, but that doesn't stop me from thoroughly enjoying the act of making silly little paintings like the ones above. 
Or this website in general. I've never blogged before, I've never written a review of a movie and I've certainly never shared my work and processes before, but here I am DOING IT.
Just the act of doing can be so enjoyable.

So, here's to doing.
Here's to going for it and accepting that failure is a part of life, and frankly isn't really that bad.
(More on that realization later)